i was asking myself how many people I've had sex until now.
And I found out over 35 some of which I don't even remember names.
I surely forgot some.
If I listed it, it would take a few days.

I know it is considered to be "many" but who judge it??
who says more than 10 is sluts??

this year, I already met several guys and slept with three of them. (i counted strictly only first sex)
it means i slept as often as once a month???
meaning if i keep going like this, i will sleep with 12 other guys in one year??

but i couldn't imagine i would sleep with the guy i wanted last December.It ended up some kind of desperate breaking up. I don't say it would be "breaking up"though.he just doesn't like me. he doesn't just wanna fuck. he needs more. Love and romance. how could he? he hadn't had a girlfriend for 4 years? who the hell knows he islooking for a lovable girl? I didn't expect to be his girlfriend but once I got a brutal "sorry but" message from him, i realizes i was expecting something from him. I had some sort of feeling that it might go on to something other I've always looked forward.

Unfortunately, it turned to be just one of others. One guys out of many guys in my life.

from January up to today.
1.taki
2.randy
3.akira
4.walid
dating
1.steve

up to May
5 Kevin
dating
2 Yuji