2003年10月23日(木) ■

I can't get you off my mind!!

I've been thinking about him all the time today. What a hell is going on!? It seems like I'm falling in love with him. No no no no!!!! Not yet. I know it's not love. Just I can't get him off my mind because......oh, I can't take it. Why I am sooooo naive? I checked my cell phone many times. Oh, I shouldn't do that. I have to behave like I don't care about him and I am a boss in this relationship. I have many things to do!!!!!! If I didn't do that, I won't be able to go to the State next year. I lose my ticket!!!!!! But anyway, I think I'm very lucky because I can have English lesson for free from him. He is an American from east coast. Thats sounds cool, isn't it? I feel like I am flying the sky high. oh, what a stupid I am. Stop it!!!! Don't think about him for a while, OK??

2003年10月24日(金) ■

Reunion party♪

I'm going to have a party tomorrow. It's REUNION!!!!!!! Homecoming!!!!!!!!!! Yea!! I can meet my old friends. Today, I don't have power anymore to write. Good night.

2003年11月03日(月) ■

Not easy to be together!!!

My friend, Rene who is my best German guy said, you shoudn't chase him and call him. If you call him first, that means, to show him you are not difficult to get. That is for sure. But I did call him last time from me. Then, after that, he called me. We are kind even. I wish Rene could live near here. I really like him as a close friend. We meant to have date on last weekend but it was cancelled because of him friend's birthday party he has to go. It was postponed to this Saturday. Actually, I'm interested in him but is there chemical reaction between us?? I don't know. He have to fight with me before he becomes together with me. And I have to be a little bit bitch to him. It's not easy to be my boy friend.

2003年11月07日(金) ■

☆The first date☆

Yea!!! Finally, I have a date with him tomorrow!!! He called me yesterday and said "Ok, what about Mexican food? And before dinner, let's go to see a movie. What do you think?" Isn't that proper date!? yes it is!!!Wow, finally, at last.... I have to choose my cloth something suits for romantic evening. hmmmmmm, now is my love promising? Thank god.

2003年11月09日(日) ■

Is there next time??

I met him on Satuaday in private. He is really cute and fun. I think my first date with him was very good. We talked many things, like our way of thinking, our past, love and dislike. I can be very just the way I am. Recently, when I meet somebody, I always pretend myself somehow. But this time I didn't need to do. I don't know how things are going but I hope we are good now and in the future. My lived friend, Rene said "I think he is not interested in you because he cancelled your offer at least once. If I were him i won't do that when a girl like you invites me to dinner." I know, he might be right. The decision depends on person, I think. If I were him and somebody who I am interested in invite me to dinner, but I have to go to my friends birthday party. I'll choose my friend. Because, I love my friend. So, in case of Rene, he would not turned down the offer. That is ok. It's a completely personal choice. Maybe I think if a person I invite to a dinner who choose me instead of his friend's birthday, I consider that he is very cold. Anyway, it seems I can manege this myself. I have to follow my heart that I like him.

2004年01月21日(水) ■

There's no next time but!

After all, he and I were nothing special. Now, I have a affection toward other guy. He is, again, a foreigner, from Australia. And sooooooooooooooo hansome guy and intelligent. Because he is a lawyer. Amazed? Definitely, I'm gonna get him!!!

2004年07月19日(月) ■

BEACH　PARTY

なんか、日記を書いてみたくなったから、しかも日本語で。 昨日は、須磨のビーチパーティに行ってきた。最近、なんやかんやと 忙しかったから、思いっきり遊んでやろうと思って友達を誘って 行った。楽しかったけど、終盤に会いたくなかった人と偶然にあって、 テンション、どん底まで落ちた・・・。サルサ踊って楽しかったのになぁ。 なんか、そう考えるといろいろ私も経験してきたな〜なんて・・・。 やっぱり、前の日記とか読んでてもうまいこといってないしなぁ。 だからって、好きでもない人に、私が彼のこと好きって勘違いされて アプローチされたりするし・・・肝心なとこアカンのとちゃうの？（笑） この年で、こんなに悟ってていいの？って感じ。職場のボスには、 ”オマエは価値観が男やな。”とか言われるし。かわいげがないっちゅ〜こと？ 明日も早いし、溜まってたメールも返したし、今日は寝ようっと。