DiaryINDEX｜past｜will
| 2008年11月23日(日) | i decided not to |
i decided not to follow him anymore.
i did all my work for him
He is somewhat selfcentered and less care about our time and me as a girlfriend lately. i do not mind hang out with his friends but i do mind if he goes to a lady's place every day who is attractive, single, and lives by herself. especially, if it's affecting our time being together. He never comes home when i cook, since he wants to hang out with other ppl or attend some parties. i mean, what kind of girl friend who don't get jealous in this situation?
on thursday, at 5pm he told me he is going to wrap up what he's doing and come to the store. I was very excited and waited for him to come here... then he decided to stay w you for the dinner and not to see me.
friday, too. he stopped by the store around 11pm rather he goes home, because he "felt bad". what does it mean "felt bad"? he come here because he "felt bad"? not to see me? that made me really disappointed. plus, he started using your nickname "ai".
i am not blaming you at all, but i just do not like his inconsidarete. i know he loves me, but he doesn't want to stop or slow down. i know i'm bad, too. since my store time, i get too lazy to join where he is. but i slowly started to join him and gangs...
I do not have time to hangout, expecially on the weekend. we did not have any private time together before, since i work till 9pm on the weekday and 11pm on wkend. even though i tried to go home earlier on weekday, he wants to hangout with his friends. only once a month, we have whole night together. that's it. he used to come to the store, but now never come here... because he said it's "too far". he travels everywhere in new york. i've never hard that word from him, but said it on thursday night.
I have been frustrated and worried when he comes home 2 or 3 am almost every night. I told him so many time why i get mad... my frustration piled up and it erupt at one point. i told him why i am frustrated and feel neglected.. but he didn't hear me. he doesn't stop hanging out.
i call it off.
i have been neglected. and i will walk my own way.
no more bother from one human being.
| 2008年11月11日(火) | my mac.... |
my macbook got stolen yesterday....
Motherfuckerrrrrrrrrr!!!!
| 2008年11月05日(水) | I see there's still some hope in this country. |
３日続きのパーティーで，くたくた。。
それに加えてプレジデンシャルエレクション パーティーなんて，
絶対に無理だったので，断ったら，アーネストは朝の５時半に帰ってきた。
かんかんに怒って結局３時間程しか寝られなかった。
今日改めてオバマの当選後のスピーチをNYタイムズのウェブサイトで見て，感動した。
この人は，本当に頑張った。何もないところから始め，グラスルートで人々の指示を得，ここまではい登った。
ブッシュが２階当選した時点で，この国にもう見切りを付けていたが，まだ望みはあった。
Yes, We Can!
